Mental Health has always been a bit hush hush. I’m going to try and overcome my own demons and change your opinion on Mental Health one small step at a time.
I find it extremely hard to talk about myself without putting on a facade, a happy face – my ‘yeah I’m totally coping act‘ but that’s what it is – an act. But, why do we do this? Why must we all pretend we’re fine when we’re not.
I think there’s a few reasons:
1. I think we don’t want to bother anyone else with our issues.
2. We have no idea what to say – I mean where the hell do you start?
3. Fear of being judged – it’s as if we think any Mental Health issues we may be facing make us less of a person somehow.
4. Work/Job – I think there’s this idea that if we want to be successful in our career then we have to be able to cope with our everyday life brilliantly. This, for me, is my biggest struggle. I find it hard to find that balance everyone talks about.
5. Social Media – we live in a world where Social Media is rammed down our throats constantly and in a world where people don’t post the negatives, only the positives. Then you get caught in a vicious cycle of thinking ‘everyone’s coping and having fun, except me’ which probably isn’t the case.
That’s why I’m starting a blog – as a person who is struggling with Depression and Anxiety, I want to find my voice and this feels like a safe, good route.
I want to find therapy in writing, in letting it out. I’m trying to make myself realise that not coping is OK and it is pretty common. I’m not coping and that’s OK…right?
If through this blog, I can reach one person, or find one person that shares the same feelings as me, then may be I can prove it to myself that I am not alone and it’s good to talk about it.
Mental Health can make you feel isolated, even if you’re surrounded by people – mainly because it’s just so hard to open up and talk. So I’m going to give this thing a go and change my ‘shush don’t talk about it’ mentality.
Wish me luck!